I LIVE!

I PASSED!!! Well, at least the written part. We won't get the practical back for a little bit. During the written, I really felt like I was going to fail, but I guess my new found reasoning skills helped out. We then did Jimmy Johns for lunch. Then back to school. My half of the alphabet went second for the practical. The first half came into the locker room bitching and moaning about how hard it was. We all got worried. In my opinion, as well as Betsy's, Meghan's, and Amy's, it wasn't as hard as they made it seem. Yes, there were parts of the body that I had never seen, but only 3-4 of them. Meghan and I think they may have been acting. I will be doing nothing tonight but going out. Hopefully it will be fun. We have a quiz on Friday though, so tonight is my one night off.

I head up to Seattle on Friday. Yay! I get to see Matt. Yay! And he is finally in his own place, so I guess I have to stop making fun of him for living with his parents. Whatever. School is going well for him, but he is now SURE that middle school isn't for him. I guess that is a good thing to know. Okay, time to have some fun!!!!!

Sad : (

For anyone who reads this, actually knows what I am talking about, and hasn't heard, Missy passed away on Friday. Very sad. She was old though. But I will still miss her.

Really short update. At school. Studying. Pretty sure I should just move to school. I am never home when it is light out, which means I can never take my laundry up to my room because I am scared of our dark basement. For anyone thinking about going to med school, really don't let this deter you. This is an exam weekend, so of course I am going to be studying my butt off. Just find some good friends and study with them. Sadly, we consider our little study breaks, accompanied by ridiculous amounts of laughing at something not that funny, fun. This is all really hard, but I am still enjoying myself. I will update tomorrow.

Sigh

So these have been some trying days. Monday afternoon/evening I didn't do much. Cali Taco was good. I came home and did a little catch up studying. That was about it though. Yesterday, however, was one of those down days they talk about. And I mean real down. I had a pediatrics interest group meeting at 530 (it was good) and then met with my lab table at 7. My friends were going into the lab at the same time, and I was going to meet up with them when my table got done with our TA. Little did I know that working with the latter would give me a sense of "Well S***, I'm F*****." I really felt totally awful. There were 8 of us working with one TA, which means when she is quizzing us, someone knows everything. Not the same person all the time, but a structure never goes unnamed. For those of us who are slow on our feet (literally and figuratively), this was awful. I never had enough time to think of stuff. Plus, they were pointing out structures I had never heard of. So I go back to my friends about an hour later almost in tears. I then went home still in a panic and proceeded just to have a down, busy, late night.

I met with just my friends this time after lab today. MUCH better. Amber is the greatest life saver in the world. She has taken this before, TA'd it in undergrad, and is overall a genius. It was great. I learned much more. Awesome. Things are tons better today. Had some good talks and am feeling much better about school and about life. Except for the fact that I tried to cut my thumb off in lab. Oops. We replaced the blade on my knife. Oops. Don't worry; it is still on. Okay, enough of a break. Study time

Tadaa!

I passed! Yay! I finally broke the rut I had gotten into with the practice tests. Yay! And we may possibly get a few points back. No real time off though. Another test next Monday. And this one will be all day. Written in the morning. Practical in the afternoon. Oh joy. Cali Taco for happy hour this afternoon though. Then studying after that. Blah. The groups studying, however, worked great. So we kind of set up a schedule for this next week. Meh

Nothing else happening in my life. I spent 14 hours at school yesterday studying. I know you are all jealous of me. Um............thats it. Have a great day all.

29th!

Happy 29th anniversary to my parents!!!! Wooooooo! Does this mean I have to plan something next year. Lame

Yeah, slacking. Well, not really slacking. Just busy. Yesterday involved school. We got our Meyers-Briggs results back. I have never taken an official one. This was official. I am 'INFJ.' I know these things are kinda like horoscopes: you can always find something true about yourself in each description. Mine does say that I want to understand what motivates people and that I am insightful about others, which, lets all face it, I do like to analyze just about everyone. Sibling, friend, dog, stranger. I analyze. Linda Pappas (our sort of study organizer lady, hard to explain) also went over more than just the brief descriptions. My combo is relatively rare in the entire population. I was on the verge of being an E rather than an I. Many may say "what?!?! Becky is nowhere close to an extrovert," but that doesn't mean what we all take it to mean. She explained that extrovert/introvert is your source of energy. Introverts are able to go inside themselves to find the inspiration and motivation to get going; extroverts look towards others. No, they aren't dependent on others; they just get more pumped about things when talking to others about it. N basically means I look more at the big picture than the little details. F....something. J........order.

Last night involved a little Cali Taco, some Dr Pepper and RC, cookies bars and ice cream, and guitar hero and DDR. Wow did I feel like a dork. I totally meant to study, but I give into peer pressure so easily. Didn't get to bed until 1. Up at 7. To school by 745 so I could get a small group room. Betsy, Meghan, and Carey joined in on the fun. Didn't get as much done as I wanted. Worked out. Ran 3 miles, which is a lot easier to do when you are stressed and pissed. Shot some hoops, which always makes me feel better. I swear, I am a better shooter now than I ever was in college. And I know what you are saying: "You actually shot the ball in college? I don't remember that." Sorry, I prefer defense.

I went to church then home. I discovered the joy of books at home. I hadn't used books all year, but I was trying to nail down these 5 lectures. I had been over the notes about 20 times but was still missing a lot of practice questions. And then I opened a book and felt much better about it. So tomorrow will involve books and practice tests. Weeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Yeah, yeah, I know

Yes, I skipped a day. But I was a total mess last night. I had to prepare for MCB small group, which I did for 2 hours only to not say anything today. Everything goes way over my head in these groups. Most of these people worked in bio labs, so they know all this stuff, and I never have any clue. It makes me feel like I am not going to be a good doctor. Ack. This little freaking out/researching business put be behind a little, so even though we didn't start til 9 today, I still worked out at 6. I am all caught up now (in terms of MCB, lets not even think about anatomy) and feeling pretty good. You know what I think it is. Neither today nor Tuesday did I have anything in the afternoon. Yesterday, I was in anatomy lab until 4:30. I think that just put me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Things are good now though.

At 4:30 this afternoon, tables 9-12 (I am at 9) went to the radiology department at CUMC for a little CT fun. We had to dress up and wear our white coats. We (with the help of a radiology resident) looked at the CT of our cadaver as well as of a few healthy people. Let me just tell you this: computers are amazing. They totally have this thing that turns 2D into 3D. Yes, I know some of you smart people are saying, "oh that is easy, you just multiply...." I just say "neato." Radiology, however, is not something I am super interested in. A) super competitive B) little patient contact. Plus, I am sure that it has only recently become so "neato" because of computers. Before that, it was all films and such. Boring. I am now at home taking a little break.

I have been meaning to say some things on here (almost deep, but not really, nothing like Bo's super reflectiveness), but then I always forget. But I remember one, so here we go: I realize that I talk a whole lotta game when it comes to taking naps. In the morning when people are talking about going home and napping, I agree (because I actually feel like taking a nap). Then I get home, and no even thought of nap even happens. I have always been like this. I have taken 2, maybe 3 naps since moving down to Omaha. As I have theorized with many of you, I believe there are two types of people in this world: sleepers and eaters. You may ask "well how do I decide? I really like both." Put yourself into a normal day, your friends call you to say they are grabbing a snack somewhere (your choice), but you were considering taking a nap in a little bit. Which do you choose if you only have time for one? This isn't a day where you got 3 hours of sleep and ran 10 miles. This is a normal day. I myself choose food. I think Bub, Dad, and Bo are all with me on this one. On the other hand, Mom and Amanda are nappers. Amanda is going to try and fight this one, but we all know it is true. Rachael - napper, just because her tummy is too small to even fit food in it. Matt - lets all face it, he is an eater. Annie - redhead, they don't count
Guster - loves dad, will do what dad does

I didn't mean for my philosophical thinking to get that long. Oops. Back to studying.

Interview time

Keeping it brief because I really have to study. I have decided that anatomy may just have to suffer this week. It is going to get little to no attention until next Monday.

I did my first "patient" interview today. Holy crap I was nervous. I went second (out of the room for the 1st). I got through the physical pain part really easily (How did this happen? Describe the pain? What are you taking for it?) but I blanked after that. I couldn't seem to transition into medical/family/social history. With help from the class I got to talking about his anger issues, but I really wasn't prepared for that. Wow. Hopefully I will do better next time.

Nothing new. Worked out this morning. Taking tomorrow off. Mass of the Holy Spirit. I don't think any of my friends are going. I think they are all going to hell.